A Binkie for Your Sorrows

Those that know Sadie know that she is a bit binkie obsessed.  Excuse me.  I should say OBSESSED.  We are trying to work her off of it, but as big brother says, it's a process.  We've cut down usage to only when it's time to sleep and car rides.  Overall, she's doing well, but has her moments.

Now, I have been way too emotional lately.  Nope, not pregnant, best guess is slightly overwhelmed.  It was exhausting keeping the house in SHOW condition, but now that it SOLD (Yep! Gotta be out by 8 am on November 10!), our new stress is finding a home (Nope!  Still have no idea what we are doing on that front!).  And I'm really getting emotional about leaving it!  After all, this was our first non-apartment, where we brought our first two babies home:(.  And those babies are growing up WAY too fast.  Super sad face.  I wish I could pause time right now, because as much work as these two are, I love them so, so much and hate to think of them aging at all.  And we have so. much. fun!

And now fast forward to my story!  I took Joshua to school the other morning (and of course Sadie had her binkie in tow).  Holy Spirit is awesome in that they have drop off, curb service by the school doors.  Just pull up, open the car door and your little one is escorted inside.  So easy!  Well, we pulled up to school and I hopped out of the car, had him jump out, gave him a big hug and kiss, told him I loved him to pieces and to have a happy day like always.  He usually does not say much, just walks off to see his teacher.  Doesn't mean I still don't stand there and watch him until he's inside:).

He took about ten steps, paused for about three, then turned slightly and with a faint smile and said in a soft voice, "Bye Mom.  I love you."  Then turned and walked on to meet his teacher before I could respond.  Well, I'm not sure what got me the most.  The little boy who is getting so big wearing his Tigger backpack.  The fact he never says anything to me as he walks off.  Or was it the sweet smile that looked a bit scared and not ready to walk in those doors as much as I was not ready to let him go through those doors.

But I ran back into the car and just started balling.  I mean SOBBING.  I HATE THEM GETTING BIG!!!  I did the best I could to drive off as I was letting it rain in the front seat when a sweet little voice from the back seat said.....

"Mama?  Binkie." And holds out her little hand with her most prized possession to share in hopes of easing her Mommy's tears.  Gosh, I love my kids!!